We talk all the time about trusting God. how hard it is to trust Him or to believe that He has the best for us. My amazing pastor talked about it this morning, and as a church we repented and believed Him for what He has for us. I, myself, have not trusted God to give me a child. I told myself that maybe I wasn’t able to conceive. I cried about it, I kept trying, and I cried some more every month as it was confirmed that I wasn’t pregnant. I believed the lie that God doesn’t care about our wants or desires. I believed that I couldn’t trust Him with this fragile part of me. and then, through prayer and fellowship, I believed. and I prayed, and I asked others to join me in praying. I trusted that God had a plan for me, and that this plan was going to be amazing to live with or without children. I told God this, I said “God, i know that you are faithful. and i trust and love You, even if you don’t give me a baby. i love You more than a baby.” My desire didn’t go away, but it also didn’t consume me. I ached for a child, but I wanted God more. and a I have trusted God, who answered my prayers, He is now trusting me with a miracle. I amazed that this God, who is does not need me, has chosen me, and poured honor upon me by making me a mother. Praise His holy name forever and ever. amen.